Abuser A has harmed me the most. Being raped and molested endlessly in my innocence, I have developed hyper-sensitivity to all types of sensations, especially feeling tremendously afraid of being touched, nor myself touching myself, because I am extremely hurt within. I also have sensory overload, by the slightest of movement, sound, visual sight, thinking and so on. Tears were welling up in my eyes every moment, which my cries were violently piercing the infinite sky.

Architecturally, I was measuring the level of my pain through heights, depths, widths and lengths in meters. There were sure to be other elements, such as lighting and ambiance. I am inclined to cover myself with clothing completely to feel protected, for every part of me is deeply wounded. I was too traumatized to speak, I became mute for 12 days straight one time. I was relying on writing, drawing, hand gesture, facial expression and objects interaction with my therapist to communicate.