There is the blank programming, which via his command, I would immediately forget his ritual sexual abuse of me, so that he would not get into trouble. With the location programming, he would command me to go to a place and I would go without a self-will. With perception programming, he has commanded me to perceive that he is always harmless, gentle, loving, caring and sweet to me, so that via this false perception, I did not know that he has actually abused me severely.

There is the worship program, which he commands me to worship him without a self-will, to lift him up. I have lost my mind completely. He had intentionally dissociated me, without knowing who I am anymore, while he knew who I am, but did not let me know. The real me was lost by the dissociation of my fragmented self-state alters, with memory loss and time gaps between switching. He has stolen the value of who I am and violated my innocence in unimaginable ways.