This is the second phase of my third grouped abusers’ third account. My personal boundaries have always been violated. I became sexually dysfunctional. They live-streamed and filmed me, as I was in my most traumatized position, looking down completely, cuddling my other upper arm tightly, with both of my legs bent sideways, sitting against the wall. My abuser came to me and said, “look at me.”, but I was too traumatized I was not looking at him. He added, “speak to me.”, but I was too wounded I could not speak to him, as he sexually lusted after me.

My abusers have started to do degrading acts upon me, by removing my white undies, spanking my butt repetitively as a punishment, until it turned pink. The punishment was without a cause, but was solely intended to derive pleasure from seeing me suffering. I then have endured of being brutally raped and molested by my abusers afterwards, as they pushed me against the wall. I’m so hurt even right now remembering all of these. The highlight of my traumatic memories is extreme humiliation; was the very first thing when my amnesic wall was leaked.