Since I was intentionally initiated of DID alters by my abusers into my mind ever since early childhood, the storing of memories is completely different than adults permanently. Adults remember memories in fading effects, but when a little child was inflicted of trauma severe enough, it can fragment the mind, creating a time-warp effect. This was when my countless of multiple identities were created, each has their own distinctive biographical memories, experiences and personalities. It means, I am being a toddler, child, teenager and an adult at the same time.

The traumatic memories inflicted upon me were in an infinite series, that I would die by being overclocked in my mind, if all of my walls would be opened, turning from multiple streams of consciousness into a single stream, without anyone killing me nor myself committing suicide. Think about a low-capacity computer that is being overloaded. I have been through hell and back.

The door was shut on that day. The light in the room went into darkness, as he has turned the switch off. I was being endlessly raped and molested for seven hours by my abusers, my genital was bleeding into a pool of blood, by the very first encounter, when I was initiated of mind control and switch programming, at the age of four, was when everything has went wrong. He then tracked every movement that I had and knew everything about me. I was under lock down and neglect.